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essays to read on substack this week with your morning coffee

FEIFEI'S SUBSTACK People You Love In Theory. On loving people you never want to see again. FEIFEI NOV 10, 2025 AT 6:00 AM There's someone I think about every few months. Not in a pining way. Not in a 'what if' way. Just in a 'huh, I wonder what they're doing' way that feels more like checking the weather in a city I used to live in. I loved this person. Maybe still do, in that abstract way you love a book you'll never re-read but wouldn't throw away. And the strange thing is, I have zero desire to talk to them ever again. Not because they hurt me. Not because we ended badly. Just because... the version of me that loved them doesn't exist anymore. And I'm pretty sure the version of them I loved doesn't either.

FUTURE/PROOF How to articulate yourself intelligently The inner album of greatest hits, and 3 frameworks to practice with DAN KOE NOV 20, 2025 AT 12:01 PM When I was young, I was always drawn to people who sounded intelligent. People like Alan Watts, Jordan Peterson, Daniel Schmachtenberger, or other individuals who could explain deep ideas in an exciting yet palatable way. Most of the time, I didn't understand what they were saying (because either I was too young or they overcomplicated everything they said), but since it sounded smart and articulate, I listened anyway and gave them my respect. The thing is, I never thought I could do the same. I thought these people were inherently more intelligent than I was. I didn't think my brain had the capacity to do that. I was a smart kid in school, but being good at taking tests is a much different skill than stringing together coherent thoughts and articulating them to someone else.

LE SECRET CLUB Gentlemen are a dying art. A study in character. NOV 18, 2025 AT 6:36 PM A gentleman. The word alone feels like it belongs to another era. People say gentlemen are a dying art, and in many ways they're right. Not because true gentlemen no longer exist, but because the qualities that define one have become rare in a world that prioritizes convenience and appearances. But that is exactly why this topic matters. A gentleman today isn't shaped by outdated rules, performative gestures or rigid gender roles. He's defined by character. By those subtle qualities that signal depth, discipline, presence and intention. This is a study in character — an exploration of what it truly means to be a gentleman today. How a man builds himself through his actions, his energy, and the way he moves through the world. And if you are a woman reading this, it will show you exactly what to look for in the men who deserve access to you.

POSTCARDS BY HASIF None of us are easy to be with Sometimes the hardest person to be with is yourself. HASIF AUG 7, 2025 AT 1:41 PM None of us are easy to be with. Not in the long run. Not when the days get quieter and the masks start slipping. Not when the infatuation fades and the real parts of us begin to surface, insecurities, the little routines we didn't even realize we had, the habits that once seemed charming but slowly begin to irritate. Not when the small talk dies down and we're left with nothing but the full weight of our histories sitting silently between us. We all come with something. Baggage, wounds, half-healed chapters. Versions of ourselves that we're still learning to forgive. There are days when we are loud in our fears, days when we're quieter than usual for no clear reason, days when we need space but don't know how to

PERFUME & LETTERS the unsexy things that are actually...very sexy things that touch your soul before they touch your body PERFUME & LETTERS TODAY AT 1:01 AM I wanna talk about the things I find sexy - not bodies, not "aesthetic people," but energy. The little things: letters, perfumes, a good shower routine, quality time, someone cooking for you, someone remembering your coffee order, consistency, good music taste, soft hands, clean bedsheets, someone who listens, someone who smells good, slow mornings, effort, comfort.

MIXTAPES BY GOR you deserve a love you never have to heal from GOR YESTERDAY AT 3:51 PM you deserve a love you never have to heal from. not the kind that comes after you have learned to fix every fracture in yourself, not the kind that waits for you to be worthy, not the kind that retreats the moment you show a scar. maybe you were not always treated this way. maybe your tenderness was taken lightly, your boundaries ignored, your words dismissed, and your trust tested until it felt fragile. maybe people saw only parts of you, liked some, disregarded others, and left without care for the spaces they left behind. but that is not the measure of love. what you have been given before

THE ROSELL EDIT sometimes disappearing is the highest form of self respect it isn't running away, it's choosing yourself first CHRISTINA YESTERDAY AT 1:44 PM there are moments in life when stepping back isn't quitting. it's choosing yourself before everything else drains you dry. sometimes you end up in rooms or around people who slowly pull at your energy. you start feeling heavier, dimmer, almost like you're fading into the background. you catch yourself wanting to disappear into the quiet just to feel like you again.